So this is something I think about.
I read a lot of things, people, places with the Alt Lit Moniker.
I feel like I’m searching.
What am I looking for?
Community? Words that move me? Comfort? Interest?
I don’t know. Whatever it is I am not finding it.
For whatever reason (aesthetics or whatever) when I read a lot of the more popular Alt Lit I am left feeling cold and semi confused.
I suppose that so much of what I’m reading feels like I’m missing some key piece of information that would clear the skies and I’d “get” it.
Or maybe I’m just not cool.
I don’t know.
In my head I suppose that when I see Alt I want real alternatives in terms of not just style and aesthetics but in terms of diversity and whatnot.
I think part of my feelings about this in general stem from my inability to buy more of it. I want to read more than is available on blogs and whatnot. That being what it is, I’m left with what I can read and a lot of it doesn’t give me something.
I’m reading Sententia #1 from ADP right now. I bought a copy of Roxane Gay’s book Ayti as well but I’m saving it. So far I’m really enjoying it. Is ADP considered part of Alt Lit? I feel like it should be. The collection is diverse, I haven’t loved everything but it’s not homogeneous which is important to me.
I don’t know what I”m on about.
I’m greedy for something that I can only say is a feeling. That sounds really fucking pretentious but it’s honest.
I want to as I’ve mentioned before, hurt or impacted. So much of the popular alt lit just leaves me too cold and it makes me sad.
Maybe I’m over thinking it. I hate wanting to be into things and realizing I’m just not. On some level I feel like I’m maybe just being an asshole even though I know I’m not.
I am a complicated snowflake.
Can we talk for a minute about Eileen Myles new novel? It has TWO different covers. I apologize for nerding all over your face but I love that so much. I want to buy both of them. I am such a nerd about these things. I wonder are the plates different? Is the typography different? Read a tidbit here.
Okay I think I’m spent. This isn’t really what I’d intended to write but it is just not going to happen for me today.