While I have been plugging away in fits and starts at some unfinished work I keep thinking I need to do a thing this year.
I am thinking I would like to write a novella. I’ve had an idea/some characters knocking around in my head and I want to get it down on paper.
The part I get stuck on is what do I do with it once it is done?
Here is where I let out some of my neurosis.
I am afraid of a few things.
If I focus on said novella, which will naturally make my time devoted to short stories and non fiction lessen, will the little (to me huge but whatever) success I’ve had in the past couple of years go away?
If nobody cares/knows who the fuck I am what do I do with this novella?
I am not a big deal in any sense of the word. I’ve been published a bit, not hugely. I’m trying to be a bit practical but my gut says fuck being read and write the shit.
So I guess I will try to produce some small works, make sure I put my Duotrope subscription to good use (that is a whole other thing) and write the shit.
I think I am going to try and schedule novella time and other shit time.
I think most of my hand wringing about this is misdirected anxiety.
I have made some changes in my financial/everything else life that are good but nerve wracking.
I’ve wound myself up.
I do in fact know what to do. I need to calm down and do what I do.
Write that shit.
Rewrite that shit.
Write like a mother fucker.
If you’ve read me for a minute you know I’m a really nervous person by nature and tend to wind myself up sometimes. I’m trying to yanno not do that and failing a bit.
Time to rally.
Also if you’re coming to AWP and wanna see me read/talk to me/possibly have my aggressive berserker hug attack unleashed on you drop me a note. I will also be posting information about my reading soon and hopefully if things work out there could be video of me reading.
Okay so that’s all for right now. I think I just had to get that out and now I can go do what I need to do.
Later this week I’m going to do a big ole geeky review of a book I really love and then I will probably make another nerdy fangirl I want to read these books post.
AH shit before I forget you can read one mroe new poem by me over at The Camel Salooon.