Lots of things are happening right now. A couple are secret, but here’s some stuff I’m good to talk about.
I wrote over on Medium about the recent happenings in ConPo, Vanessa Place and AWP and what critics of the mainly POC people talking about this are doing and how they are using some new shit coded racist language. That was convoluted, the short version is people in the lit world are being extra racist as fuck lately.
I have more to say about that, but it’ll happen next week.
I’m ready for more Patrons. My household finances are about to get leveled out and I would like to start saving for AWP16 in LA soon.
It’s 7:30 inthe fucking morning. I’m coming off of a migraine and can’t sleep.
I keepthinking about the banality of the way the lit world gets a racism boner.
I say, hey don’t be fucking racist. I get blocked on social media by white dude bro poets I’ve never heard of. I get shitty messages everywhere about how I’m ruining my career before it takes off. How if I’d just be quieter and nicer with allies, if I’d write “normal” stories.
Okay so recently I got published at Shotgun Honey. That was a big fucking deal for me. I’ve been a huge fan of that magazine for a long time and yeah, there was an agenda with that story.
The Junie in the story is a Black lesbian who under her mentor has put her art and anatomy to good use in the criminal world.
That is not a story I’ve heard before in most noir type stuff so I wrote it.
A few “friends” suggested that it was weird and why did Junie have to be Black AND gay.
That’s what I deal with from “friends” .
That’s well meaning people upholding white supremacy.
Those people are honestly worse than straight up racists.
Instead of saying like, hey that story was a piece of shit or hey cool little story. I got but why was she Black and gay.
It is exhausting.
It is demoralizing.
And yet, I’m still doing it.
Mostly unpaid. Entirely too visible sometimes.
It’s why my comments are moderated.
Why I will block people or ban them. So far on my author page on facebook I’ve deleted a treasure trove of racist sexist comments. I’ve blocked I don’t know how many people.
Here I am. Exhausted. Stressed out. Half terrified and giving way too few fucks.
I’m still here.
Okay I’m being told to finish my food and take some drugs so I’ll sleep.
Goodnight moons and hams.