My life is chaos soup with a stress bomb salad right now so let’s talk hustle updates.
So it is now about the end of Feb and I am in the process of changing my hustle yet again. Here is where I was at new year.
Let’s talk stats and whatnots.
Medium first. At Medium I’ve experimented with humor, feminism and reprints.
I started the experiment Sep 24, 2017. For three pieces posted behind the paywall that much I got $1.61. One body image essay, one much rejected literary essay about diversity and one racial pain pornish essay. The only one that earned was the race essay.
It had: 107 views, 29 reads and 5 fans and 144 claps. For medium speak, that is fairly average for my stuff.
My highest earnings were in Oct 29, 2017 through Nov 26, 2017 I earned $28.29, one of my humorous but serious Dear Sir/s pieces earned the most at $26.71. Everything else was either 0 or neglible. At the time I had 5 total pieces available behind the paywall.
For the last two months I’ve had 11 total pieces available behind the paywall at Medium and made about $2.
On the advice of someone, I have a fairly varied selection. Some shorter things, a little humor, some literary, some body image, some race stuff. But, most of it either goes entirely unread or performs very poorly.
For Steemit, after my first month on a good day I average 2 views of things from poems to photos. So after an initial run of some okay tips on fiction and poetry that has bottomed out.
Now if you’ve been here a while, you know this is fairly common for me and has been for years.
The more interesting thing to me is this.
I have posted hundreds of thousands of free shit to read. For at least a decade. Fiction of many flavors, essays, how to, photos, poems, body image shit ALL THE THINGS.
I’ve been experimenting with some concepts that are popular for artists/creatives and the bottom line is this.
The advice has revolved around creating content and varying it etc.
Here’s the thing, there are barriers. Some of those, I cannot force my way through. I can’t make folks do shit. I can ask and at this point I don’t expect those needs to be met through my side hustles.
I am wrapping up this experiment mostly. I just don’t have the energy to do that much work for no return.
I had a mantra in my head. I said, I may not be the best writer out there, but I’m going to work harder than the best writer.
By Morgan Jenkins in interview with Jennifer Baker at Electric Lit. Go read it.
We know I do need the hustles but I am rearranging them. I’ve got an amazing opportunity I am considering doing. I’ve had some editors from mags I really really love reach out to me to suggest I pitch them.
I am still doing the most at Patreon. I even have a new free post up you can check out here. My expansion at Patreon is going. I’m dropping an extra post or so a month for Patrons and that has been good.
The other important thing going on is that, I’m getting out of my feelings about the things that don’t work for me.
I can’t lie. Sometimes I read through some of the higher earning stuff on Medium etc and I just get depressed. I feel like, I work so hard to give something to my community of value and hear crickets and some silly 400 word thing folks are dropping kudos and cash on. The worst is when I get to thinking about the failed etsy store etc etc.
Add in the resurrected and new traumas from doxxing and losing some really precious resources and whatnot, shit has been rough. Trying to rebuild that sense of community without exposing myself to a certain type of lady writer has been hard as fuck. I don’t like it.
Part of this experiment has been me trying to work out those bad feels. A large part of me working out the feels is diving straight into how I tend to feel them. Hence my analytics and shit.
I really had to go through it so I could get a clear idea if I was just being overly emo or if it was some real shit.
The bottom line is the following.
For me, offering things from me as in me posting stuff etc, doesn’t work. It isn’t just funky FB algorithms, etc. This has been a thing for more than a decade across many platform and encompasses all the shit I like to do.
To tell y’all the truth I’ve been working on this for a long long long fuckin time.
Collating the data on how much a lot of people don’t care has been real hard on me but, I did it.
I am free..
SO that said. I’m off on some new hustles, I’ve let go of needing and/or expecting the community to provide.
That’s all for now babes.